Hello earthpeps, guess who is back, yes you are right its me FAJ. Ok so today I am gonna have kinda a serious subject.
I have had anxiety for about 7 years now, like whoop whoop fuck you anxiety. I still remember when I first had an anxiety attack, I didn't know what it was when I had it. I have always had a fear of planes, as kid I never understood how it was possible for something to float in the air and I had always heard anout plane crashes, so this was the second time I was going to get on a plane, and before we boarded, I was well shitting myself, and I was thinking if all these bad scenarios, and well I felt as if I couldn't breathe and that's how I had my first anxiety attack, I thought it was something to do with my asthma as did my parents, but then there was horrid turbulence on the plane, and I had a very bad panic attack, I don't know how to explain it, but it was one of the worst experiences of my life, I remember when the plane landed everyone was surrounding me I didn't even know who these strangers where. It was all a blur for me.
When I was 11, I learnt what anxiety and panic attacks where, and that's when I realised that I suffered from this illness or whatever it is classified as.I found myself having more and more panic and attacks, I still remember in year 8 I had an anxiety Attack in front of my whole English class when doing a presentation, I just wasn't able to do it, and so I broke down crying and toldgmy teacher that I couldn't, it was probably one of the most embarrassing moments of ny life, and where I felt so weak.
I have had anxiety for about 7 years now, like whoop whoop fuck you anxiety. I still remember when I first had an anxiety attack, I didn't know what it was when I had it. I have always had a fear of planes, as kid I never understood how it was possible for something to float in the air and I had always heard anout plane crashes, so this was the second time I was going to get on a plane, and before we boarded, I was well shitting myself, and I was thinking if all these bad scenarios, and well I felt as if I couldn't breathe and that's how I had my first anxiety attack, I thought it was something to do with my asthma as did my parents, but then there was horrid turbulence on the plane, and I had a very bad panic attack, I don't know how to explain it, but it was one of the worst experiences of my life, I remember when the plane landed everyone was surrounding me I didn't even know who these strangers where. It was all a blur for me.
When I was 11, I learnt what anxiety and panic attacks where, and that's when I realised that I suffered from this illness or whatever it is classified as.I found myself having more and more panic and attacks, I still remember in year 8 I had an anxiety Attack in front of my whole English class when doing a presentation, I just wasn't able to do it, and so I broke down crying and toldgmy teacher that I couldn't, it was probably one of the most embarrassing moments of ny life, and where I felt so weak.
Everyday when I walk to school I worry so much for the day ahead and stupid things like if I forgot something. Its not fun and I am just grateful to have such kind friends who are there for me. Like these bitches be blood (hehhehe alliteration ) .
I still get anxiety ans panic attacks but theres nothing that I can really do. You need to remember you can't get rid of it permanently but you can maintain and make it well 'less' there I don't know how to explain it.
Just remember guys all the SR group will be there for you and don't be scared to let us know if you need any help.
Anxiety is a cruel thing you need to learn to accept it and not let it get to you.
Stay strong my earthpeps.
Bye Earthpeps
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